I had to ask didn't I

Wow ok Ive cracked lol I should be a blubbering mess but I cant.  The meds must be working.

So they did come shut the water off and the landlord said they told him if the bill isnt paid in 48 hours that the city will be informed and they will come make everyone leave.

Then my sister/best friend of 30 years informs me she may have cancer.... This is my Godsons mother....

So lets recap...
Best Friend/Big Brother: Homeless and Suicidal
Best Friend/God Daughters Mother: In ICU Fighting Cancer
Best Friend/Nephews Mom: In ICU Blood Clots in her Lungs
Best Friend/Godsons Mother: May have cancer

Unemployed, Broke (no income), Car's messed up, All my bills are behind w/shut-off notices, No water, no oven, mice, and Now we may be homeless in 2 days.

Can someone just kill me and end this misery??? LMAO!!!

N there is no one here for me........
Im facing it all alonnnnnne..........

while the kid's father runs off to smoke with his friends............
and the kids argue over petty shit..........
And I can't cook or clean anything....
Can't focus.... Can't think... Can't stop thinking.... forgetting stuff.... start to do something and forget what I'm doing.
I'm losing my mind....

Patiently waiting for my blessing.....

Wanting to crawl under my blanket until it all goes away.......

In desperate need of my snow globe what if I lived there permanently????