Dont know how I feel.

So I missed yesterday. It was pretty so so. I got up pretty late because I was up most of the night. I got a lead on a job but as I started to feel excited I started to think you are just setting your self up for another crash n burn. Maybe I should explain. I have ten plus years of experience in human services, I do not have a degree and am not bilingual. in the last 5 months I have been on tons of interviews, second interviews, even third interviews and the result has always been the same. Im still unemployed.  My experience is amazing, My references could not be better, My interview presentation is on point I spent 4 years teaching others how to be the person that gets the job........  My analysis on it is that Im over qualified for the jobs that dont require a degree and the jobs I am qualified for expect a Masters Degree. I've even been to a few interviews that I knew the people interviewing were afraid I'd take their job.  Its extremely aggravating and has intensified my depression.

Of course that is only one piece to the puzzle.  So a friend who is dealing with the same issues looking for work called and we got together she feels herself sliding down the same slippery slope Im on emotionally and thinks we need to do something to pull ourselves out of the fog.  I agree but Dont really have the motivation to, but I forced myself to do something to help someone else anyway,  Helping others is what Im good at.  So we went though all her Grand daughters thing to see what we could put together for a friend who just had a baby and wasnt prepared.  We found a lot of stuff and Im working on cleaning it up.  It helped me feel better for a little while until I got home and asked my kids father to bring in the big stuff for me.  I got a ton of attitude and "they probably have this and that blah blah" It really hurt my feelings because its his friend, his Godson, I am trying to do something nice for.  This is an example of the Crash and Burn.

Not to mention have you ever felt like everything you do is taken for granted, or not good enough?  Yeah well welcome to my life.....